I'm not on drugs.

I'm sitting here trying to convince you but you never believe maybe because you never listen and never care does nobody care we're all just dust.

No silly.  I'm not under the influence of anything except my mind which can be so potent at times and my sanity is so coy!  So capricious!

And you.  Oh don't even let me begin. 

You.

I'm on drugs, you say.  But you have managed to convince yourself that a bottle can solve all your problems and make that nagging emptiness go away that's always there dwelling at the back of your mind even when you can't stand up straight you're under the influence of something other than your mind.

So which is better?  Being on a constant natural sugar rush or being under the influence of somethng that you cannot control or tame?  ALCOHOL.

You disgust me.

A sugar rush didn't kill that little girl that you hit driving down the road whene you couldn't stand up straight even though you weren't standing.  That was when you were under the influence of something that was not your mind.

Unnatural.

Oh look.  The paint on my fingernails is chipping.  See, this is why I never paint them especially not this color what-was-i-thinking.

You look uncomfortable now.  Ah.  Now i'm a doctor.  Saying his might be uncomfortable as he's about to puncture your skin with this gargantuan needle (frickin huge)

Yeah that's not uncomfortable Ii told im once.  Painful, yes.  Uncomfortable isn't the word I would have picked especially not now.

Say I would wring his neck oh yes that would be uncomfortable. 

Just the thought is making me tired.

Now the sugar rush is wearing off.  Now i have no excuse to talk to myself anymore.

Now i have no excuse to be insane.

But you see, that would be the point where i didn't need excuses.  Insanity.  Truly.  Then i wouldn't even realize it I suppose I'd think myself perfectly reasonable.

Or am I already...

No. That's silly.

As long as I can separate my DWI self and my sugar-high self I'll be fine.  Guilt isn't a problem because it wasn't me it was that stupid drunk.

WHO ASKED YOU?